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why the hell....

Sun Jul 3, 2005, 4:21 PM
Why the hell am I going to college to study costume construction... persuing a CAREER, dedicating my working like to costume construction... when I'm SOOO BAD at it?

ok, background... on saturday morning we fly out to germany for the Starlight Express open day. I'm going with Mazz (and Jared, hopefully, he has not yet got a passport.......) I'm making Mazz an Ashley costume (And Jared a Rocky....) we've had this booked for about a month, but with college work, chronic fatigue and overall inertia, I've only really been working on the Ashley this past week, and bullying Mazz and Jared into making a start on the Rocky.

Everything that possibly CAN go wrong, seems to have gone wrong, as far as my making CRAP decisions goes. machinery is all working fine (kisses the wood....) but my brain is very much absent. I've made every dumb mistake possible, un-picked AT LEAST once every seam I have sewn... wasted half the fabrics in getting stuff wrong... wasted 3/4 of the precious TIME in unpicking and re-sewing.... I'm getting stressed.

Stress causes insomnia. I've been getting about 3 hours sleep the past few nights, now we're into the final week before leaving. This means I make more mistakes than before! I've spent the past hour unpicking the seams of the sleeves of the leotard, as I need to completely re-do them. at least once the bits are re-done for the 2nd or 3rd time, they do look good... this will end up a unique and interesting Ashley. In a couple of months' time.

As for poor old Rocky - Mazz made the base unitard the other day, she and Jared painted it up this afternoon... I've heat-set it as well as possible on lycra (using heat sufficient to properly set the paint on lycra gives you crispy toasted catsuit) He may end up having the crappy old accessories I made him 4 years ago!!! Alternatively I might make him a very small pair of gold shorts and spray his skates to match.


So... we leave for germany on saturday morning. The actual open day is Tuesday 12th. We arrive home weds 13th. friday 15th Mazz and I both have a singing exam. Mazz has a dance exam on thursday 14th. Then I go into hospital, for a general anaesthetic and a cortisone injection into my bad shoulder on the 18th July. Last time I had a cortisone injection, christmas before last, the joint locked completely for 4 days, leaving me in absolute immobility and AGONY, then it calmed down to 6 weeks of pain such that I could not use my right arm... then it returned to normal levels of discomfort. SOMEHOW the specialist thinks that giving me a general anaesthetic first will mean this doesn't happen again. I sure hope he's right, or else I have a very unpleasant summer ahead of me. It should, at least, calm down in time for me to go to college in september, to study costume construction, which at this point I'm beginning to regret!!!

Life sucks. Then you die.

*scream*

it's 1.20am, and I'm far too stressed to sleep. JOY. WHY the hell do I choose to do this???

###Belle###

Costume Design: because naked actors are distracting!
  • Mood: Stressed
  • Listening to: Louder than words - Tick, Tick.... Boom!
  • Watching: like I have time...

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:iconvoltachick:
awwww :hug: Don't worry! Your costumes rock and honestly, I think you're one of the best costume designers out there :nod: . You're going to be ok and you're going to have a wonderful time when you get there. :petting: I don't think you suck at all. Make sure to take piccies too!

Remember: YOU ARE :#1: :dance: GOOOOOOOO BELLE!!!!!!

hope my cheesy cheer raised your spirits a bit lol. I :worship: your work! And I'm sure others around the world who've seen it do too!

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:icontwospotz:
I am SURe it'll go OK! Afterall, you are doing something NOW that I only wish I'd known about when I was younger. I have lost out on so many amazing things because I grew up ina small tiny city with one local college etc etc and no real news on what was in the outside world. :-( Now at 30 I live in sweden's 2nd largest VERY VERY internatioanl city and the world has opened up... You are lucky to live in a country with so many opportunities!

I knwo you'll do just FINE in the singing PLUS make wicked costumes in the future1

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:iconbellepullman:
Thanks for the support, guys! I'm getting pretty much overwhelmed by the amount of work and the deadline, if ya can't tell! There's a work-in-progress shot of the Ashley costume under my scraps, if anyone wants to see. Have got more done since then!


ok, this is basically got my own reference, here's the work still to do:

ASHLEY

Chimney
dye Mazz's hair
smoking sign
shoulders: finish decorating, sew together, fit on Mazz, attach poppers to leotard
Leotard: sleeves, replace bust area with ceam covered in fishnet, two more eyelets, set gold lacing, include cigarette pocket.
hotpants: hem top, attach velcro to attach to belt
Belt: make, line with velcro fixings, make handles
leggings: done!!!!!
kneepads: hand-sew brown decoration on, trim in gold
elbowpads: make from cream and brown/gold fabric
gloves: arrrgghhhh
slinkies/skatecovers: make slinkies from velvet, skate covers from the last brown lycra

did I miss anything?



ROCKY (possibly not needed... will know tomorrow)

Unitard: needs red vest-top, numbers, shiny front and back panels
Hat: needs new hat
Arm Bands
Elbow pads
Gauntlets
new gloves
new belt
kneepads: paint commercial skate pads
shinguards: same fabric as front/back panels
paint skates

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###Belle###
:iconbellepullman:
Ashley kneepads done! commercial kneepads (for Rocky) located....

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###Belle###
:iconrollerboyjeremy:
blinks tilts head.

Since when do your cossies suck? I worship the ground your cossies walk on, nay I am blinded by their superiority!

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:iconying-temptra:
Awwwww :aww: THREE WORDS: You'll be fine. It'll be alright in the end. You've started it and now you'll finish it :) The end result will be worth all the sweat, tiredness, tears ;) Sounds gross but ^^

Enjoy your trip. I have every faith that you have it done ready and waiting. And you're going to shine :aww:

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:iconbellepullman:
Latest joyful update... Having applied for passport today, Jared will know by 9pm on friday if he'll have his passport in time for the 9am check-in on saturday morning.

No let-up from the stress, then.

I think I'm gonna make the bits, and take them with most hand-sewing and painting to do in germany.

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###Belle###
:iconbellepullman:
Check under "Scraps"- photo of Ashley costume in progress. We've passed that WONDERFUL stage where there's more DONE than outstanding, and it now looks like a costume, not random scraps of painted lycra!!! Last bits of hand painting and decorating can be done in bochum, in hotel room. Only sewing left to do is her slinkies!


Rocky, however..... so far, the unitard is painted wood-pattern but not the black lines yet, nor the red top. The kneepads are painted and sealed, tho the paint will come off as soon as he uses the bowls. Ah well.

Other than those two elements.... I got a helluva lot of sewing to do! I'm planning to get the armbands, belt, hat, etc, everything cut and basics sewn together, and we'll hand-sew and decorate them out there. We've got all monday free!

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###Belle###

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